almost ten years ago i met a puppy, cute beyond believe, we are together since .
Let me introduce to all of you George, wolf mixed with husky and Sheppard, gorgeous over 50 kg, long legs, black and white coat, absolute perfection
George is my first dog, when i brought him home i had to learn fast how to take care of him; this amazing dog was lots of work, fussy with food, agresive with bikes and runners
when he was 4 months old i left him with my son and went on two weeks vacation, i was very concern at that point how could i handle him, i was scared not to be able to control this guy and i was right ….
my holistic vet seeing us together strongly advised me to fix him as soon as possible …..
It was difficult even to think about it, i was asking around for advise, i was reading, thinking, debating with myself and i decided to fixed him when he was 8 month old and i regret it ever since …
when i was pushed to vaccinate him for parvo and distemper i got homeopatic remedies to build immunity, i only gave him rabbis because it is mandatory, the shot was for three years and after three years the blood test showed that he still has antibodies for rabbies, no more rabbis shots for george, if necessary i change the date on the document …
i started feeding george raw food but pretty soon he discovered that my cooked food taste so much better that he refused raw, more work for me plus the overwhelming knowledge of supplementing … it has been always a battle with george and supplements!!
every morning i walk with george in different conservation parks, no leash, freedom for both of us, if there are no runners or bikes it is stress free for me, we usually walk with other dog owners, george likes it that way and i feel safer in case we meet full of testesterone guy on the bike
there is another danger waiting in the woods, ticks, who the fuck created them i wondere often … it is a battle to spray george with my mixture of essential oils to repel them and constant checking of his coat; i love winter!!!!!
in four months george will be 10 years young!!! His latest blood test shows improvement!!!!
october last year ultrasound showed growth in the stomach and intestines, biopsy was necessary for final diagnosis; plus the blood test showed anemia; i decided not to test him more and use natural ways to make him stronger …
george has been licking and bitting his back legs, they were shaking very often, the chiro pointed out changes in his spine which influence his back legs
for the last six months george sees chiropractor, osteopath, holistic vet, homeopath; i give him supplements, homeopathy and a drug rapamycin, which is antiaging for older dogs, CBD, DMSO and other
i tried few things on his legs but whatever i put on he was licking it even more, i even tried my own urine with the same results, i dont know how to solve this problem and it bugs me tremendously!!!
i often ask what did i do that created problems in georges health and i always think that neutering him was the reason, i always recall how he looked at me when i came to pick him up from the hospital …. and after that he started eating rocks.
the first operation to remove the rocks happened when he was exactly one year old, what a nightmare it created for me and my family is beyond anything we experienced …the next operation for the same reason when he was almost two years old and the third time the hospital was able to push it thru …. i was so happy when the news came that he didnt have to be cut again but at the same time i was devastated by the thoughts that the problem is not solved yet and i dont know how to prevent it from happening again ….
i contacted three different dog whisperers , send them information about george, his photo and all of them told me that he communicated to them that he did it because he was bored; how could it be i thought, with all this walks in the conservation parks, leash free, chasing wild animals, walking usually with friends … what else can i provide, except plenty of toys he already has and good human cooked food????
he was told by those three individuals that what he was doing was very wrong, dengerous to his life and extremely stressful to his family … he must have taken this message seriously because it never happened again!!!!
george looks at me with his human eyes saying things i dont understand, he seems to be sad lately, lying in his bed a lot, not wanting even to investigate his backyard, it breaks me seeing that
georges energy plummet for the last 10 days, he was taking rapamycin for 4 months straight and a week ago i decided to stop for a month to let his body rest from it, not knowing what is the best way to treat him overwhelms me …
george is getting weaker, jumping in the car is not the same any more, things change daily, it is all so fast … how can i survive this … its the harderst time in my life … i am beyond scared
this is hell!!
how could i fill up the hole that is coming … for the last ten years George is a part of me, it is devastating, the pain is nasty, the thoughts are sacking my energy like vampire, like entities living off my energy
it is Friday 27th of may, George is sleeping, yesterday he got treatment from his holistic vet, acupuncture, B12, and steroid shot ( for the first time ever); he is not eating for the last two days, vomit twice yesterday, drinks lots of water; his stomach is huge, he is dying …. my heart hurts, my life stopped but the world moves forward …
George passed away around 9 pm that day
the last day was extremely intense, we took George for his usual walk, as always he came to the car and jumped in, we drove to the park with the river, where we could park very close to the water; i still hoped that maybe he will eat, i took some of his food …. even another dog didn’t make him to eat … but he went swimming and he spend over ten minutes in the water
he looked so healthy and handsome, hard to believe that he was sick … we ended up at the emergency, where cancer was confirmed and he was helped to dye at the end of the day in our arms ….
fucking cancer!!!! how is it possible that my boy got it???? what coursed that????
everything else was working perfectly, he could and should be living another 5 years …